The Year of Living Stressfully…

Cue a younger Mel Gibson running through the streets of some South American city… Then, fade to black…

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So, I FINALLY had more than two-minutes to sit down and catch up on the blog… 

Last year (2008) was probably the most stressful year I've had in the last ten. Mostly, it was needlessly so. And lately, I've been asking myself what changed from previous years?

-There was assorted market nonsense and dumbassery. 

-The inept and generally corrupt governing body (especially its leaders).

-A seemingly more pervasive fear-mongering by the so-called news media.

-A general lack of accountability among government and corporate "officials."

-Getting injured three times in twelve months.

-Et cetera…

All of this, along with my wife voluntarily leaving her position at Hewlett Packard back in May, has helped make the last year a definite "bear" year. Across the board…

Alongside of that though was how I reacted to all of this. Coach Tony Blauer has a great saying that I think about whenever things get tough: "Are you feeling challenged or threatened?"

Challenged means you're looking for solutions to whatever problem(s) face you. Threatened means you are reluctant to engage them, and are thus at the mercy of whatever the "threat" may be.

And I was definitely feeling threatened this last year. I withdrew and "hunkered" down, feeling the need to — psychologically at least — go fetal for a while. As a result this last year was one of the worst I've had both financially as well as creatively. All my trading was off (though it did seem to start to reverse — for the better — in December). And creatively? Well, in the last four month I haven't written more than a total of seven hours (maybe 5000 words)… Not to mention: no painting, no drawing, no sculpture, no digital art, et cetera…

Nothing.

What the hell was THAT about?

Sigh…

Since I can't go back in the past and have a "do over," all I can do, is pick myself up, dust myself off and get back to it.

So that's the plan.

For 2009, it is going to be a return to "firing on all cylinders." Creatively, financially, et cetera…

What am I going to do differently, you ask? Well, along with some physical goals that I wrote about here, the first thing is I am going to do is: plan my work (both trading, as well as project) and then work the plan — which I did NOT do most of last year. 

The second thing is: I am going to cut back on my internet classroom time (I've been studying endocrinology part-time for the last three years ** ahem** for fun)… I know, I know… 🙂

The third thing is: I am going to severely cut back on my forum posting/blog reading/news gathering, et cetera… As I have let it become a time sink of unimaginable proportions. 

And lastly: I am going to do my best to NOT be overly influenced by people in perceived positions of authority — no matter the venue. As I have found that, over the last few years, I have let those types of individuals derail aspects of my life — to fulfill their agenda(s) — and not mine… And it NEVER turns out well for me…

So, onwards and upwards, and a return to "greatness!"

Who's with me? 🙂

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